It has been almost a month since I last posted, on the 30th May, and now June is ending.
During the month, every time I opened up the "write a post" page, I was always distracted by something else. For a whole month, I haven't quiet down, and let my thoughts sit and simmer. It has been running, and there are just too many things happening and also, my laptop decided it needed a reformat.
Now finally I installed the bare minimum of programmes that I use, and I get to sit down and be still. Just over Watsapp, while I was chatting in a group, I realised a lot of things changed over one year. Some of my friends are going to Sydney for 2013 Hillsong Conference, and I have decided in a way to remain in Perth. Relationships developed over the year, friends that I was not close with are now some of my best friends, while sadly there are friends that I was close with who are now further apart. I realised, to be able to share life, to share a genuine faith is so much treasured in my heart. Time after time I smiled at the praises and thanks given to God for what He has done, and time after time I shared in the sorrow of those facing difficulties. Although I have grown old, I am glad God does keep a tender heart in me, that I can still cry and laugh in His presence, not be hardened by situations.
Last year, it was during the Hillsong Conference that I realised my heart for student ministry and I started to ask myself what I can do for God in this area. This year, now, I am thankful for God's guidance to lead me to where I am, to trust in Him although I did not planned to stay on at all during my 5 years of study life. Yes, I might be earning little income, but God has been giving so much. The joy of seeing people come to know Christ, to see brothers and sisters in Christ grow, and to see them serving in love really light up my days, and bring so much joy and peace to my soul. It makes my heart glad, like how your heart will be all soft and tender when you see your loved ones.
It is that season of year again. It is the middle of the year. It is time for me to shift gear and slow down, to ask myself, to come before God: what I have not done, what I could have done, what can I do. It is time to reflect and see what is in store for the next half of year. And, no matter what will come, I have faith He is there and His plan is the best plan.
