This is my second Easter Camp with Passion. The first one was last year, where I was a group leader; and now, I am just joining as an ordinary camp member, which brings a different perspective having not needing to shoulder responsibilities to lead a group.
This year, the camp was at Club Capricorn, Yanchep. It is a great location. Chalets give me a homey feel, and from my chalet to the beach is just barely 2-minute walk away. It is away from the city, other than the occasional cars driving past the camp site roads, it is all quiet and away from the noises of the city. The beach is lit only by moonlight, and this is the first time I actually see the Milky Way (photo by my friend DSKY), so bright and dotted with so many stars. I like stargazing, it is relaxing, just lie down, and look upon the sky with a feeling of wonder. There, Mars glowed with a dim red, and another, Saturn lit up a yellow dot. Just as I gazed above the sand dunes towards the direction of Gemini's two bright stars, a shooting star swooshed past and I made a wish.
Time out like this camp is what I needed to be away from the habits of daily life and the stresses of assignments and unending commitments in life. A walk into wilderness, I prayed as I laid back on the cool sand on the beach. The future is not always clear. I know I am on the way to serve communities who need architectural design but could not afford, and yet I am not clear as to how to do it. I leave it up to God, and although I do worry at times, I pray, as I have faith in God for He has been good to me.
Being in camp, I decided just to enjoy the company of others. And yes, I had a wonderful time with everyone in camp. I had quality bromance time (^.^) and being able to just sit down / lie down and talk about life is wonderful. Relationships are not just built upon doing things, but actually share life and thoughts. I have to admit I am not a talkative person, I am fine to be by myself, but I do long for deep talks. My dear brothers-in-Christ, thank you for being there. Somehow I am afraid to be too close to sisters, as I don't want them to misunderstand or even to prevent myself from giving part of my heart away just yet. I am not against BGR, as I prayed about it every now and then, but I do need God's guidance in this area of my life and I don't want to take on this all by myself.
Reflecting, I knew I needed a refreshing spirit. I have been laid back in my actions. I felt God has told me to do many things but once I woke up the next morning, I just decided to let the ideas slip by as they are not my daily routine and I think they are hard to achieve. The second night of camp, feeling the Holy Spirit's guidance, I made my decision to step out of my comfort zone, and let Him lead me in the uncharted territories of my life. To be like Jesus, is to have faith in Him, and to let go of the control over my own life which I have slowly taken over from God. It is a blessing to be able to grow, and serve God, not just receiving from Him (although I am so used to receiving that I am fine where I am now).
Back from camp, I talked to a fellow brother. There are things I can do with His guidance and although I am not a great speaker, I have decided to start a change. It maybe hard for me to step out, but I trust in Him. People need not a religion, but a relationship with Him.
I am Yours Forever.
