The holiday is almost over. This is the first university winter break that I actually didn't waste time, as I used to stuff all my time with trying to complete campaigns for new found games in winter. This winter, I took a big step as my dear Father placed this opportunity in my life.
As Mordecai advised Esther in Es 4:13-14, there is a chance of servanthood for me. It is daunting, I did not know what to do, but by His grace I took it, and there are all of you who are serving together and supporting each other, praise Lord. During the time of fast, reflections upon my own life and past brought upon one conclusion, I have been hurt so much that I decided to stay dormant, and to sleep and just pretend to be passionate.
Thank you, Father as your Holy Spirit leads me in my daily time, to see how weak my own will is. Without You, I am nobody. My academic results is no more the top in class, I am poor in musical talent, I am a poor speaker, I am not cool or charming; but Lord, You gave me an identity, that of Your child, of Jesus's friend. Holding on to this fact, waking up from my 'sleep', I am passionate for people, as I know how being lost feels like.
My favourite verse:
Psalms 119:105 Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light on my path (NIV)
