Rested, ate dinner - rice with sardine in tomato sauce (nyam ^.^), and take some time to be quiet while watching the night sky and listening to rain hitting onto my window.
It is a good time of reflection in the camp. I am always so busy with assignments that it is hard to find this kind of time to reflect on my life. I know I am not here because I wanted to be here, but only after I came back from astray that I felt the love of heavenly father who accepted me and reminded me that He is with me, Holy Spirit is guiding me so that I may grow to be a humble servant.
Since 1st year in Perth, people who just got to know me always asked me this question: "Staying here after uni?" I would usually answer: "See lah...if there is work then I will stay." But, all the while, I have this burden that I felt in my heart that I don't know how to explain. I don't like the government back home at all, but I love the people and the homeland I grew up in; I wasn't sure if I go back, is there a future for me?
Then He showed me:
I had no money to study in university - He provided
I did not have passion in Christ - He provided
I was timid - He strengthened
I was doubtful - He affirmed
And so, I am affirmed by my heavenly father that He shall be there for me when He asked me to go back after university. I am not sure of the way ahead, but I will trust in Him; this is my favourite verse -
"Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light on my path" Ps 119:105
For He knows that I will be impatient and try by my own knowledge if He showed me all the path, so He just light up destinations that I need to go, and guides me step by step as I can only see the immediate steps; all the rest of the path I put my faith in Him.
